Sometimes , being what other want by compromising your true behaviour may not work if you don't want to be mediocre in life. My inner self always scream to be my self , accept the way I am and express true emotions without any guilt . When i start to walk a certain path ,i follow it religiously untill I cross to unknowns . Because after that i start following their path. I ignore my inner calling bacause i have a fear of NOT saying No To people . I attach emotionally and afraid to say No . So only option i left with is to follow along with them leaving behind my inner soul who continuously scream to match my mind with my heart . I can't say no because I have a sense of insecurity that stops me from NoT feelings guilty about my actions . I walk , i make mistake , i come back to same starting point again and again . But finally after tired of listening to others and following others path , my inner self started reaching me sooner and closer . Let's call it "insu". Insu - i am now listening to you and try to say No politely to those things which make me feel distracted from path which i have decided for myself . Thank you Insu 🙂